I’ve been so overwhelmed to say the least, but there hasn’t been a moment that I have not been grateful or appreciative of every single one of you. 

Thankful to Dr. Judy (my hometown doctor) that has been nothing but absolutely amazing and so supportive. I honestly could not have chosen a better doctor. My maternal fetal medicine doctor, Dr. Shimmer, who was so good at explaining all our options. He took such great care of us and performed my amniocentesis to verify our angels diagnosis. 

Every single doctor in the nicu that helped with Holland. Dr. Gerday and Dr. Minton were absolutely amazing! They explained everything to us and gave us options after Holland was born and didn’t push us in any certain way and were so understanding with all of our decisions. They helped make our sweet girl comfortable in her last days and that’s all I could ever ask for. Dr. Richardson was with us on Hollands last night and he was wonderful! He was so sweet and kind and didn’t make me seem like a crazy person after she passed and I kept her with me. 

All of Hollands nurses (Heather & Kristin) please forgive I cannot remember everyone. You guys were seriously AMAZING. You did everything right. You gave us the time we needed with her but were always right there when we needed you. I honestly could not be more grateful for you. I felt like a part of the family. Truly was blessed with the best. 

All of my nurses. I don’t think I can even name them all! But I remember every single one of you. You took care of me, understood what was going on with my baby and didn’t get mad when I wasn’t in my room very long and up in the nicu. I just am blown away with the Utah valley medical staff. Everyone is absolutely wonderful. I have not had a bad experience yet and I’ve had two babies there!

Dr. Ludlow, who not only delivered Hayven but my sweet Holland too! You are amazing at what you do and have a great team behind you.  Dr. Warner, who released me and called me the very next day to check on me. That may not seem like a big deal, but it was to me. You made sure I was okay after losing my baby and my grandpa and that means more to me than you will ever know. 

My family, I don’t think I could have gotten through this without you. You have been there for me in ways I never thought possible. You picked me up when I was at my weakest. Made me feel loved when I just wanted to be alone and felt like I was dying. You made me feel okay. I have the best support I could have ever asked for. And grandpa, I have a whole blog about you coming up next! You truly are my hero. I love you so much. 

My friends, my acquaintance, and the 5,000 people that read my blog, I literally cannot explain to you how much your love and support means to me. I so feel your prayers and I think that is what gets me through the day. I feel comfort because of you guys. 

I wish so badly I could write and hug each and every single one of you. I wish there were words I could say to make you feel how grateful I am of you guys. 

The messages, phone calls, cards, sweet gifts and everything in between have meant more to me than you could imagine. This whole experience has changed me SO much. In a good way 😉

If I missed anyone, please, please, forgive me. Pain meds make you crazy and a mom brain makes you even crazier 😉 

I love you all so very much. Thanks for the support on this crazy blog journey! 

Xoxo

Tasia