February 17, 2017
This morning I had a lot of thoughts and I wrote them down. It is kind of coincidence that the same day I had all these thoughts is the day we scheduled little misses birthday!
I think one of the best things about a c section is being able to know when the baby is coming. Maybe because I’m such a planner and need to have everything perfect all the time it really just suits me. 😉
As of right now I am so scared. Like beyond scared. I hate the unknown. It is killing me not knowing what to expect when she gets here. BUT man am I ever so grateful for the doctors and nurses that found out my babies diagnosis before she got here and I would have had no clue.
“I’ve learned a lot along the way, and one thing I learned is, everything you are going through you have to learn how to make you BETTER not BITTER. Show the world just who they are messing with. I have every reason to be bitter right now. But if anything I have grown closer to my Heavenly Father because he is the person I lean on during the hardest times of my life. 💗 Someone told me the other day, “I do believe we pick our trials before we start our life on earth.” I have never thought about it like that. And to be completely honest, I don’t know why I chose this trial but out of everything it has made me a stronger, more level headed person who feels extremely close to her Heavenly Father and I think that is exactly what I needed. Every little thing may not be okay, but we will get through it. Because I have a momma heart and have felt the love I have for my babies there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to keep my baby here forever but to know that somewhere along this crazy journey I’m going to have an angel watching out for me & her big sister brings me comfort. I love you so much little miss H and I am getting anxious to meet you! 💗”
We will be welcoming our sweet baby girl into the world on February 23rd.
All I need from you guys is LOTS and LOTS of prayers that we can get through this. And that little miss will not ever have to suffer an ounce of pain as long as she is living.